It's difficult. But we will have to. Our week scedule is full of stuff and we will have to reduce something.
In the past we always made all the visits of our friends and families members. We almost never get any visit. If we do, they are so rarely that it is hard to understand why. Did we do something wrong in the past, that almost no one wants to see us in our house? We didn't find the answer and if we ask them all why... usually the answer is: "We don't have enough time. We are so bussy."
As if we have it? As if we are not busy!
We are both full time emoployed; Janez is working from 6 a.m. till 3 p.m.; I'm working from 7 a.m. till 3 p.m. - one hour of drive each way. Loris is in second grade, in the afternoon once per week she is attending balet dancing, three times per week piano lessons.
Patrik is in his last year of preschool. We are working hard to teach him everything he will need to know and to do, to be able to go to the best possible school for him. As far as we can see there is only one school here in Slovenia to accept him and it is in Ljubljana. And yet we are not sure if they will accept him, so we are really doing our best to give him the best start.
It is sad, but yes... we get visits so rarely that Loris does not know exactly how to behave when we get some... She is running around, triing to get all the attention, triing to show everything she posses or she can do.
I apologize to all who feel hurt... but, we always make all the visits; to our friends, to our families and yet when we say that we can not...we feel really bad. I can not even remember when any of our friends came to visit us in our house. This is sad.
Unfortunatly we will have to stop doing that and reduce this running around. We are not able to do that anymore. It is too exausted and we are not doing almost anything else than running arround. Almost no talk for us; for me and Janez. We can not sit down and just be...
Sometimes we wish to escape from all of this, from this crazy life we are living... Yet we can not. All we can do is to adjust it a little bit and start to breathe and to live a little bit slowly.
Will we manage? Honestly? I don't know. Certanly I hope so.